If These Comments Could Talk

Each trimester when grades are due, teachers across the country (or at least across the westside of Los Angeles) wither under the writing of ten to twelve sentence paragraphs that must capture the academic achievement, behavior, effort, growth, and 'areas for future improvement' of their students. Some of us write only fifty, some a grueling hundred,…

Eating Food Like a Person

I can't tell you how exhilarating it is to eat food, all food, however much or little I need, and get the fuck on with my life. Sounds simple, but it has been one of the most difficult processes I have ever gone through. It has taken years to undo the insane thinking that comes…

Open Mind/Heart

People would probably describe being "open-minded" as having the ability to accept many walks of life, judging less and loving more, being willing to have new experiences, listening. All of that is true. But there is an even deeper meaning to a truly open mind that in turn lends itself to being able to accept and…

Introversion: A Love Story

I know what you're thinking. Introverts are people who are incredibly shy and taciturn. They wear black lipstick. They never ever have fun at parties. They rarely assert themselves, and they have like, one friend. This is all stereotypical nonsense, of course. Some of it may be true for some introverts - I have certainly been shy and have…

Sensing and Perceiving

At the wedding I wore a green dress and felt pretty, and it was disorienting because half the time you watched it, flickered, but then you stopped watching, and then I became ugly. I still chase dad sometimes, don't I - so charming and absent, who blinks my foundation to dust and rubble as if through magic.…

From High School Druggies to Witches and Queens

When I made attempts at writing novels and short stories as a teenager, all of my main characters were girls in the throes of pill addiction. (Prophetic in a way, as my pill addiction grew to its full force in my early twenties.) They were pretty girls addicted to "Demerol" and "Benzedrine" and "Valium." (The novels of…

Mystery Woman

There is a woman. And she's flawless. She's tall and sleek and tanned and blonde. Or maybe brunette. Long full hair and skin like honey. She wears makeup, but she doesn't need it. She's even prettier without it. Not a blemish on her. Slight shoulders and long lithe arms. Skinny skinny. Skinny skinny. Her beauty is…